no flowers today

so the weather finally broke. by broke, i mean, it went from snow to heat exhaustion overnight, which was followed by rain this afternoon. finally, at 65 degrees and rain-free, i was able to go out and meander through my 'hood and snap some shots of the best thing about may... things budding. things growing. the world becoming green again.

i'm not posting any of those pictures today.

i set out to find the beauty of spring. i wandered a good twenty blocks. i heard the sounds of the neighborhood. kids and parks. hipster guitars coming from windows. lots and lots of traffic. laughter at every corner. the ice cream truck. sirens, sirens, sirens.

sirens are very common in my neighborbood. i live vey near the intersection of two very busy thoroughfares, which is four blocks away from the nearest ER.

sirens are a sound of springtime.

i thought nothing of it... until i passed the park...

one block from home, the sirens amplified and i count eleven squad cars on my corner.

an eleven year old boy was beat to death with a golf club by a ten year old boy.

i walked the other way.

and i'm not posting my pics of things in bloom.

there are no flowers today.

i set out to find the beauty of spring. but in my heart of hearts, i am a winter girl.

i need time to process.



i am always waiting for winter.